Hanging by your finger tips

So today I went for a hike in the new forest with my room mates. Of course it does not sound like the most exciting thing for some of you but when you live in the city and all you see every day is cars and large chunks of metal you can forget what is really out there. So like every one our hikes we are of the beaten path by a long shot. My room mates like to think they are explores and are traveling through the woods and making a path of their own. So we came upon this rock face and what else do you do with a 50 foot rock wall in front of you. Climb up it. If you have never rock climbed before you must. When you are going up something that most people would just look at is simply awesome. grabbing cracks in the rocks and getting a grip with two fingers and simply pulling your entire body weight up, there is just no words to discribe it. I dont know for me it is a true test of your self. Because when we got to the top you could see for miles. So when we got to the top we saw another cliff on the other side of the lake that was the tallest one in the park. So we decided that we had to climb that one. so we walk over and its a solid 60 feet of straight rock wall. So my other room mats go first and then its my turn. I start going and when I get about half way up I find my self stuck. I could not find a foot hole and I thought i was screwed. I then started hearing people swimming in the lake saying stuff. Like dont look down and where you going to go now. This is when i really thought i could not go any further. I thought I was screwed. I truely remeber thinking I am Fucked. 30 feet off the ground and I was stuck. I could not climb down or jump. But then I just thought to my self I can do this. I started looking every where and I found a hole. I picked my self up by the hands and swapped my feet around and swong my leg out and got the hole and climbed the rest of the way up. As I pulled my self up i seen my room mates running to the edge because the people where yelling to come help me because they thought i was going to fall. I dont konw if this is just like life. Getting to a point in your life where you face something difficult and people dont think you can make it. You just have to find it in your self that you can do it and there will always be someone there to help you in the end wether its friends or family. Sorry this is not like the other blogs of wanting to go camping and go to florida or summer vacation. I dont even konw what vacation is any more. I just look for the weekend so i can sleep till 9. Well other than that I poped my tire on my bike yesterday and I fell a sleep on my roof watching the starts. So thats about it. And i noticed I can not grow hair under a party under my chin. I do believe its from someone always pinching my chin while i was growing up.

KEnny

oh heyyyy

hey its emma. no one has written on here in a while so i thought i would. I'm sitting here babysitting jake well he is sleeping which is different but i like it ha. So this week i bought a new 22 flat screen tv for my room with a dvd player and a new entertainment center :) also i was really bored with the gay grey walls so haley came over and put quotes around the room and the room now looks sweet :) so for all of you who come over and i scream at for you to get out you are now welcome to come in whenever you want lol. well one more thing that is new is me and jen got our nose pierced!! haley went with us and they look sweet and i absolutely love it! oh yesssss so last weekend up at the campground my friend jake, ally, haley, tim, zak and john came up on just about the worst night it was so hot and it was pouring out alll dayyyy so we decided hey why not walk around at 12 and go jump on the new blob the campground got. so we are jumping and you couldnt jump for more than 2 min without wiping out on your ass and having everyone laugh at you lol so then we descided hey lets jump the fence and go swimming so we were swimming in the pool for 3 hours! we enjoyed the hot tub and we walked up the huge slides and went down about 4 times. it was just about the best time i have ever had camping and security didnt come by once :)

Rockin' En Vogue Pride style

Summer is Coming... TICK Tock

So this year's first trip to Rock Island WI was a huge success... I got to spend some nice quality time with my main man (Ryan) and my main animal (Georgie). The weather was awesome, the food insanely good, George was well behaved, my skin was kissed by sun; all was perfect. Well all except for my run in with Senor Tick. That bastard snuck into my sock one night and if that wasn't bad enough, he had the audacity to spend the night without me knowing!!! He was pretty comfortable by the AM, unlike myself. Ryan was none too pleased about this intruder and he made sure that he was kicked to the curb or rather to his death... submerged in a vile of alcohol. EW

GRADUATION IS IN 9 DAYS!!!!!! HOLY HELL I CAN NOT WAIT :))) ohhh and Just in case you all have forgotten my birthday is in 8 days :) muahhhhh -Em







for you mother.

Stress Should be Banished...

Hello again. Hmm I may be on here a tad bit too much, and I try to wait for everyone else to get a chance to write... but it is taking too long ha. I'm impatient. Along with that, I am suuuuper stressed out. I have projects up the butt in school, work that drags on forever, and dumb drama in areas it shouldn't be found. I need summer and I need a nice day laying out by the pool. Racing T down the water-slides. Listening to Kim and john bicker. And watching Kelli say, I'm on vacation, leave me alone.

Also I have been thinking. I have been dissecting the cause to the anger in the family, and I saaaay we all need a vacation. Lets cut school early, request off of work, and clear the table for new plans... Like going to.. idk Some place cool that's for sure ha.

Anyways, I was reading what Kenny the Benny was saying about moving away for college and getting the life he wanted, and how much it sucked in the mean time by missing out. And it has me worried. I really want to go to Utah State for college and get a PHD in psychology and get a Doctoral degree which includes a Combined clinical/counseling/school psychology degree. And the thing that freaks me out is, i have to go through Two smaller degrees before that to get the degree i want.. great. And it is estimated to be around nine years. NINE YEARS?! That's like most of my life, all over again. And to think oh how much I'll miss out on scares me. But I really think it will all be worth it. Well that's at-least what I keep telling myself. And then when I think about it, I won't be able to hang out with Dustin all night, and go out for food during the late hours of nighttime. And I won't have anybody there. like nobody. I would have to start all over again, and hopefully get by with paying bills.. The last thing on my mind is to being an adult, and having to pay bills and save money, and not being able to go shopping when i can. and I can't just go out and buy junk food.. ha I am going to suffer. And I find it lame that I am already stressing out college stuff, but I guess it's the time to start :( ha. Also, beyond that I'd hate to have to ask my parents to help me out on stuff for when I go to college. Like I know I will run short and not have enough money for certain things, and I rarely ask my parents for any money... And I hate asking for money. Makes me feel like I can't pay for simple things when I have a decent job.

Speaking of which, I want to quit mcdons right now. ha I hate it. I'm planning on getting a new job right after tennis season this coming up year. Then I can finally say "good bye my little grease factory." then I can finally throw my gross uniform AWAY! ha

Wow I rambled on a lot today. So I better call it a night. Even though I did just get Starbucks, And I probably won't sleep right away sooo I better catch up on homework. G'Night :)

Michaela Jo

Where's the anger coming from?

I was reading Kenny's blog about his anger and I find myself feeling the same. This is not normal for me. I know I'm Debbie-Downer but that's just the worry-wart in me. I worry about everything and everyone. Especially my family. I worry about Kenny and Heather being so far away. I worry about them in a situation of needing someone immediately and we're all hours away. I worry about them feeling lonely and out-of-touch or feeling like they don't have anyone to talk to. But lately, I've been feeling really ANGRY!!!!

I try to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Why am I feeling like this. Here's what I think my problem is....I'm angry that my mom got screwed during a "routine" procedure at the hospital. I'm angry that she's not the same person she was before this happened. (BUT..I'm incredibly thankful that she is still here and doing as good as she is) I'm angry that Josh has to be a part-time parent. I never wanted that for any of my kids and Josh deserves more. (BUT....I'm very proud of the dad that he is and I'm so very happy that our old Josh is back!) I'm angry that Kenny is so far away and I can't see him everyday. (BUT... I'm happy for the person he's become.) I'M ANGRY THAT KASEY IS GONE!!!!! I'M ANGRY THAT MY CHILDREN, MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS, BROTHER, SISTERS, PARENTS AND ESPECIALLY KELLI, KARISSA, KEVIN, TAYLOR & DAVID HAD TO SUFFER LIKE THIS!!!

We all have so many things to be thankful for. Sometimes it's hard to get past the shit in our lives that makes us angry and see all the good. For me, I think that since mom got sick and Kasey died, I'm finding it even harder. Part of me is angry all the time. I know exactly how Kenny feels. I feel like my chest is going to explode too.

But let me tell all of you family-bloggers just why we are lucky....We have a family that can survive. We have a family that loves each other for who we are. We don't judge, we don't criticize, we don't fight or push-aside those who need our help. We stick together no matter what. I think myself and my sisters can be very proud of our children. We didn't have everything growing up, but we tried to give it to our kids. I'm not talking about material things....I'm talking about the togetherness and the love that each of our children carry with them. They know that all their AUNTIE "K"'S are there whenever any of them need us. For this we can be proud.

I do have a suggestion....If anyone else is feeling like me & Kenny....like you just want to explode.....we should line-up at the graduation party and lay the smack down on someone. Who wants to volunteer for all of us to hit 'em?