"Inspiration"

"I felt reluctant to leave those brutal and rugged mountains, the dry, scorching plains... The life is wonderful, strange- the fascination of it clutches me like some unseen animal- it seems to whisper, 'Come back, you belong here, this is your real home.'"
N.C. Wyeth, 1904


The aircraft slowly climbed to 30,000 feet that afternoon. With the ascent came a deep sadness and dread within me. I couldn't help but acknowledge the ever widening gap that existed between myself, the wonderful mountain range, and also the truest love that I have ever known.

Since as long as I can remember there has been my sister. We grew side by side, on one team, with one heart. As kids I acted as her protector and even on the occasion, her voice. As we grew, so did our independent minds, but somehow, someway, we were ever tethered together by a common thread. We have seen and felt so much together that I know within my heart that no one will ever compare. For that I am truly grateful.

The tragedy of today is the literal gap that exists between our physical selves. She has gone to pursue and seize life in the greatest way that she could conjure. For that, I have a magnitude of respect and knowing her as I do, I get it.

I, myself, have yet to be untied from point B. All of you (yes, you dear kin) keep me here; feeling reluctant to roam West. The idea of being away is difficult, even painful to think about... especially since, in such recent times, one of us has been lost. I know that our hearts will not give up on each other, regardless of space, time, place, idea, opinion, etc. There is however, a little clock that is tick -tocking away; deep within the recesses of my being. There will come a day when I depart to point C, maybe even D or E... But know that it is the love that I have learned from all of you that pushes me to grow and love my life as much as humanly possible. This is not to say that moving away or separation is necessarily the source of growth. I am a firm believer, however that we learn the most about ourselves when we allow there to be challenge and a lack of familiarity.

Family is home and I am certain that Heather and Kenny can agree that nothing by way of the heart is lost with space. Our family is one of a kind and it will stay bound and unbroken for all time.

Deepest love,

Meg