Calling All Kin

I think of her all day everyday. It does not matter what is going on. I know that I have not been as close as I would like to have been in the past few years. But life keeps going, keeps moving. And we get caught up in that. You don't have any idea what I would do for one last hug, kiss, smile, laugh or just a glance. I made myself become so far away, physically and mentally. I wish I could change that but it is what it is and I did what I needed to do. I really hope she understood that. However, if I wouldn't have left she wouldn't have gotten sick. No matter what anyone says, I will hold that over me until the day I die..
She has done so much for so many people. She taught me almost everything I know. My mom was busy. Way busier then I ever gave her credit for, mostly because I didn't know. And for that I am also sorry. I really wish that everyone could understand what my G has done for me and how much she has influenced me. There is not a day, let a lone a moment in every day that I do not think of her or what she would say or do.
I do want people to know that I am happy. I love my life, my friends and my everything and I would not feel this way unless she was a part of it. She has made me realize how wonderful life is and to make the best of it. You can not take anything for granted because every little thing happens for a reason and every little thing is going to be alright.
I love music and I love words. And people have sung and said some amazing, powerful things. I don't take anything for granted and I try to appreciate everything and everyone that ever crosses my path. And I hope you do too. Life is way too short and you never realize until you loose something or someone. I really hope that everyone that I surround myself with realizes that I will do anything for them and that I love and care for them..
I hate that this blog has lost its followers, so please keep it going. We will some day realize how important it is. This might be our only way of keeping in touch, which is sad but reality.
We have an amazing family. Don't let everyone else down. Keep it going.
I love ya'll always and forever. No matter how far away I am..